I wish I could get over what happened in my head, like I’ve gotten over it on the outside. It wasn’t really that big of a deal, and it’s not like you were trying to hurt my feelings or make me upset. You just weren’t feeling it at the moment, and you didn’t want to force it. That’s understandable, and I can’t be bad at you for feeling a certain way and not being able to help it. But I was so proud of myself for actually working up the courage to say I wanted it, and actively sought it out…then I got turned down. It just sucked, so bad. I hate myself so much for not being able to ask for sex more and be more active when it comes to intimacy, so for me to speak up and just ask for it seemed like a big deal to me. I didn’t think you would say no, especially knowing it’s so hard for me to be confident when it comes to this. Blah. I’m afraid to ask again now.