I’m so fucking high and I just want to keep smoking because this is such an amazing high. Everything feels so good and I’m so light and happy. I want to smoke joints all day long, make love and just chill. But I have jobs and responsibility and have to be sober enough to function, so I can’t sit and get hella fucking baked. But it’s teaching me how to moderate and save my weed better, and it’s keeping my tolerance down enough to actually get high off one or two bowls. It’s so rad having a big bag of weed, but it’s smarter to save it and not smoke it all within just a couple days. I feel kind of grown up, saving my weed and shit haha. And I’m saving money for bills, putting it away and not spending it so I have less to pay from my checks. I’m even saving up money for gas and other things, which hasn’t happened for months basically. Everything is looking up it seems and it feels like there is some balance to our world again, which relieves so much stress off my back. Getting paid four times a month means we won’t be super late on rent or our other bills, and it means we can set aside money for winter and any other things. The months of struggle were harder than I had imagined they would be, so I’m not getting stuck in another harsh ass winter with no money to get us through. And I know Jason will help save money and set some aside from his checks, so next winter and after won’t be so damn hard. Live and learn!